Have you ever had one of those mornings when you just wake up illogically pissed off at the world and everything seems to go wrong from the moment you open your eyes to begin your day? Of course you have; we're all human after all.
Well, today was one of those mornings. I recognized in my body right away that it was emotions with no basis, no apparent reason for being there, as I woke up in a warm bed with a roof over my head and all of the blessings I had yesterday, but nevertheless it still persisted. I had weird dreams that affected my headspace, and I had no urge to get motivated and start my day. When I got up, I realized my doTERRA box had came in and got all giddy opening it, only to drop the brand new bottle of OnGuard laundry detergent I'd gotten on the kitchen floor, breaking the cap and spilling about 1/6 of the bottle.
This all seems, and truly is, very trivial, but oftentimes it's the littlest things that set us off, or at the very least expose the emotions we tend to bury and push down for the sake of productivity, for the sake of being strong for others, for the sake of seeming like we have it all together all of the time.
Something I think is a misconception in every single persons' minds is that we are the only ones who feel the way that we feel. I have not been inside yours, or anyone else's, body and mind and cannot sense exactly what you have experienced in your life, but I can tell you one thing: that is that you are not alone in your feelings. You are not alone in your emotions. You are not alone in your suffering, through whatever that may look like for you at this time in your life.
We are all so much more alike than we are different.
Moods shift, our energy fluctuates, and change is the nature of the mind.1
We all have stress, fear, anxiety, grief, pain, sorrow, and a desire for peace, health, and happiness. We are all human beings living in a world of fluctuation.
Some days I feel like launching new business ideas, meditating, chugging 10 lbs. of kale juice, running, journalling, doing yoga twice a day, and treating my body like the temple it is. Other days, like today, I have feelings of being stuck, lost, unsure, and overwhelmed. I put productivity on the back burner, replaced with eating alllll the french bread, giving myself proper time to rest and restore (sometimes Netflix binges are key, y'all), and holing up for some self reflection or even a short pity party, without setting expectations on myself. This is easier said than done for some of us, but oftentimes, doing what we perceive as "nothing" is the best thing we can do for ourselves. Instead of pushing myself to do the things I felt like I "should" - ah, the dreaded SHOULD - be doing, I halfway allowed, halfway forced myself to do acts of self-care by taking a detox bath with epsom salt and oils, showering and actually washing my hair for once, drinking some heart-warming hot cacao, and, for me, self care was also being able to talk about life with someone, to have deep conversation.
After some time reflecting and talking with this dear friend later this morning, my energy came back to me and I have started to feel light again, but I think the only reason that happened is because I allowed myself to be vulnerable. I confessed aloud to my friend that I have had so many ideas circulating, so much action I want to take, but I've been scared to do it. Fear of failure, fear of success, and perfectionism all feed my tendency to procrastinate. Take this blog for example; I have had plans to post something at least weekly. In the time since I've shared my last blog post, I've had so many things in my heart and on my mind that I've been afraid to share, afraid to move forward with. It's natural, and it's ok to feel all the emotions, it's when we let it hold us back that we have to look inward and decide whether they're going to determine the outcome of what we want to give to the world.
I felt called to share this with you all to understand that none of us lead perfect lives, none of us have it all together, none of us are void of the spectrum of emotions, perceived good or bad, and that self care and dealing with these emotions looks different for everyone. So eat the bread, watch those episodes of The Office or New Girl for the millionth time, then chat it out with someone, get up and moving, and do the steps you need to in order to feel joy and take aligned action again.
Kallie St Clair
I have found my home in doTERRA, I have found a chosen family in doTERRA, and the deepest realizations I have had, and continue to have, have come from personal growth in doTERRA over the last 3 years. If you're looking for community, a chance to become the highest version of yourself, and a chance to explore yourself and your strengths, let's connect.
1 Eknath Easwaran, The Bhagavad Gita
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